LOL……so true
‘It’s just a fanfiction. It’s just a fanfiction,” I reminded myself as I wept silently in the corner.
(Source: vitalyorlovs, via thefourthfireshadow)
Thinking of you..
My feelings for you have never changed and they never will. You were my first love and you still are. I haven’t met anyone else that I have had a stronger connection with than you. That day when you changed schools I was heart broken but didn’t know how to tell you. I mean you never said ‘goodbye’ School was never the same with you gone. You were what made my smile everyday you changed me. Here we are four years later and you walk past me as if i’m invisible like I don’t exist like you’ve never met me before. Do you have any idea how much that hurts? Your as popular as ever and everyone adores you. But do you notice me? I stare at you all class I loose myself in you, my heart skips a beat when you look in my direction. I do nothing but think about you all day everyday. Your the only one that seems to pop into my head and it drives me crazy because we no longer talk its like i’m sitting outside your ‘circle of friends’ and waiting for you to come talk to me like you use to. I admit we have grown up maybe even grown apart but my feelings for you have done nothing but grow stronger over the years. Have yours? Have you really forgotten about me? There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t regret telling you how I felt. I have yet to grow the confidence or courage to speak to you. If only you knew how many times I have written letters or even tried to tell you how I felt, but I never could I didn’t want to wreck what we had as friends. Even now as I’m writing this I cant stop thinking about how much i love you. I know that word is overly used today, but your the first guy I can ever admit that to the only person I ever felt myself with. I truly believe we were made for each other. I feel foolish writing this knowing that you will never read it. If only you knew that you are the reason why I can wake up in the morning wanting to continue on with my life even though you don’t see it, I always look at you trying to figure out a reason just to talk to you even if it’s as simple as saying ‘Hello’ I miss the old times where we would always play outside at recess, push each other around, and when we watched a movie we were always the first to pull our chairs up side by side while the rest of the class sat behind the two of us. It puts a smile on my face just thinking about it. I have yet to understand why i get choked up just by hearing your name, I get goose bumps just by seeing your face, my only questions is why? Why don’t you come over and talk to me? Why do you act as if we are complete strangers? Why do you act as if I have never mattered to you? I have watched to many movies with the same story line and the ‘happy endings’ i’m starting to think that’s complete bullsh*t. I deserve a happy ending I deserve……you
>.< Just something iv’e been wanting to say not complete but what do you think?
